Chapter 2 - The Facade of Perfection

The drive back to our four-million-dollar modern farmhouse in the hills was a blur of highway lines and blinding headlights. I walked into the house, and the scent of expensive white lilies hit me instantly. Vanessa loved lilies; she had them delivered three times a week from an upscale boutique in town.
“Grant? Is that you, honey?”
Vanessa stepped out of the walk-in closet, dressed in a backless emerald-green silk dress that draped perfectly over her slender frame. Her blonde hair fell in effortless waves, her makeup was immaculate, and she looked like she belonged on the cover of a luxury lifestyle magazine.
She was twenty-nine, an associate director at a high-end marketing agency, beautiful, sharp, and constantly moving.
“You’re late,” she said playfully, gliding across the polished hardwood floors and wrapping her bare arms around my neck. Her perfume—something sweet, musky, and exorbitantly expensive—filled my senses. “I called your office twice. Your assistant said you left early to pick up your mother from the hospital. How is Ruth?”
“She’s fine,” I said, my voice sounding flat, distant, like it belonged to an actor reading lines from a script. “She’s resting at home. My brother took her back.”
Vanessa pulled back slightly, her manicured brow furrowing as she studied my face. “You look awful, babe. Did the doctors find something wrong?”
“No. It was just a routine catheterization.”
“Good.” She brushed an invisible piece of lint from my lapel, her smile returning in full force. “Then shake it off, darling! Tonight is our night. Do you know how hard it was to get a corner table at L’Avenue on a Friday? Senator Hayes’ wife tried to bump us, but I pulled some strings with the general manager. Go change into your charcoal suit.”
Her fingers grazed the lapel of my coat, and then she felt it.
The hard, square contour of the velvet box in my inside pocket.
Vanessa’s emerald eyes instantly widened. A squeal of pure delight escaped her lips. “Grant! You didn’t!”
Before I could pull away, her hand slipped inside my coat and pulled out the navy velvet box. She held it like a child holding a golden ticket, her face radiant with anticipation.
“Vanessa, wait—”
“No waiting! It’s our anniversary!” She popped the lid open with a soft snap.
The twenty-two carats of diamonds caught the recessed LED chandelier lighting, throwing dazzling specks of white light across the pristine white marble island.
“Oh, my God,” she breathed, taking it out and immediately wrapping it around her slender wrist. She held her arm out, turning it this way and that. “Grant, it’s breathtaking. Look at the clarity! Oh, you outdid yourself. You really did.”
I stared at her slender wrist.
And behind her, in my mind’s eye, all I could see was Elise’s wrist.
The brittle paper hospital identification band. The purple bruises blooming beneath translucent, pale skin where nurses had repeatedly tried and failed to establish an IV line. The tiny, involuntary tremors in her fingers as she tried to twist a piece of cheap plastic.
“Do you like it?” I managed to ask, though the words felt like dry gravel.
“Like it? I’m obsessed!” Vanessa threw her arms around me, pressing her lips against my cheek. “All the girls at the firm are going to die when they see this. Let me put on my heels, and we can go show it off to the world.”
She practically danced back into the bedroom.
I stood by the kitchen island, staring at the empty velvet box resting on the counter. The inside lining was stamped with gold foil from Cartier.
Twenty-two thousand dollars.
When the divorce judge had asked about liquidating our savings to help Elise transition into an apartment, my attorney had argued vehemently that our investments were tied up in restricted stock options. We fought over ten thousand dollars of equity in a joint savings account. I had spent eight thousand dollars on legal fees just to ensure Elise wouldn’t get a dime more than the minimum required by state law.
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I walked to the kitchen sink, gripped the edge of the granite, and stared at my reflection in the window.
What kind of monster was I?