Chapter 8 - The Dress on the Worktable
Three months after the wedding, Paige called about the dress.
“I don’t want to sell it.”
“All right.”
“I don’t want to wear it again either.”
“That seems reasonable.”
She hesitated.
“Would you come over?”
Her apartment had always looked temporary to me.
Carefully chosen cushions. Expensive candles. Nothing personal left where someone could see too much.
This time, the dining table was covered in fabric.
Patterns lay pinned beneath scissors.
A borrowed sewing machine sat beside a mug full of pencils.
The white dress rested across the back of a chair.
I stopped in the doorway.
“You’re working again.”
“Trying.”
She looked embarrassed.
I hated that expression on her when it came to something she was good at.
“Show me.”
She had started helping a community theater repair costumes.
Not designing an entire production.
Not launching a label.
Just taking in hems, replacing zippers, and remembering what her hands knew.
Her therapist had suggested choosing work that did not depend on applause.
Paige said she resented how useful the advice had been.
I walked around the table.
There were sketches taped beside the window.
A blue coat.
A green evening dress.
A child’s cape made from scraps.
“These are good.”
She shrugged.
“Paige.”
She looked at me.
“They’re good.”
This time, she accepted it.
“Thank you.”
Then she unfolded the white dress.
“I want to make something out of it. Something that isn’t about what happened in the chapel.”
“What?”
“I thought maybe a christening gown someday. Then I realized I was assigning it another family expectation.”
I smiled.
“Progress.”
“Very irritating progress.”
She showed me a sketch.
The silk would become a simple blouse for her and a lining inside a keepsake box for Mom’s letters.
There was enough fabric left for something small for me.
“If you want,” she added quickly.
I touched the sleeve.
“I’d like a pouch for my wedding vows.”
Her face softened.
“I can do that.”
We spent the afternoon removing stitches.
I was terrible at it.
Paige corrected my grip without making me feel stupid.
That, too, was new.
As the dress came apart, we found the tiny hand-sewn pocket Mom had asked the atelier to add inside the lining.
The envelope had rested there.
I had opened that pocket weeks before the wedding, carefully removing the letter while telling myself I was following instructions.
Now I saw the stitches differently.
Mom had planned for hurt.
She had also left us the work of deciding what to do afterward.
Paige ran a finger along the seam.
“I keep getting angry with her.”
“Me too.”
“Then I feel guilty.”
“Me too.”
She looked relieved.
I sat back.
“I loved her. I still love her. That doesn’t mean everything she did was fair.”
Paige nodded.
“She was trying at the end.”
“Yes.”
“I wish she’d started sooner.”
I looked at the white silk between us.
“So do I.”
We did not rush to say anything comforting.
Some truths did not become kinder when covered.
Later that week, the estate administrator sent an update.
The house would need to be sold to complete the distribution cleanly.
Neither Paige nor I could afford to buy the other out without creating a burden.
For a few days, I hated the idea.
I imagined strangers painting over the marks beside the kitchen doorway where Dad had measured our height.
Then Paige suggested we document the house before it went on the market.
So we did.
We photographed the garden.
The sewing room.
The crooked pantry shelf Dad installed and refused to admit was uneven.
We recorded each other telling stories in the rooms where they happened.
Some were funny.
Some were not.
When we reached the doorway with the height marks, Paige stood beside her name.
“I cheated on this one.”
I looked at the highest pencil line.
“How?”
“Stood on my toes.”
I laughed.
“Mom knew.”
“Probably.”
We stood there together until laughter turned into tears.
Not the kind that demanded rescue.
The kind that arrived because something mattered.
Before we left, we removed one small piece of trim with the marks, with the administrator’s permission and a carpenter’s help.
It would be mounted in a frame.
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The house could belong to someone else.
Our childhood did not have to be sold with it.
