Chapter 3 - At 6:28 in the Morning

I learned what happened when Marcus came home because Mrs. Finch called Lucy, and Lucy asked whether I wanted to know.
At first, I said no.
Ten minutes later, I came downstairs and asked her to tell me.
Healing, I would discover, was rarely as dignified as people made it sound.
His car arrived at 6:28 in the morning.
Mrs. Finch was already in the kitchen. She said Marcus came in carrying a small paper bag from the airport, the kind containing a gift purchased by someone who had remembered an obligation at the last possible moment.
“Is Eleanor awake?” he asked.
“She’s gone, sir.”
“To her mother’s?”
“No.”
He apparently looked irritated before he looked concerned.
Then he saw my ring.
He searched the sitting room first, as though I might be hiding behind a cushion to make a point.
Upstairs, he found the envelopes.
Mrs. Finch said he called my name once.
Not loudly.
That detail hurt more than I expected.
I could picture the confusion on his face. Marcus understood a crisis when it arrived in a spreadsheet. He knew how to manage falling markets, furious clients, and million-dollar mistakes.
An empty bedroom offered him nothing to negotiate with.
At seven fourteen, my phone began ringing.
I had already muted him.
At seven twenty, a message arrived.
Eleanor, call me immediately.
At seven thirty-one:
This is not how we handle things.
I stared at that one while Lucy burned toast in the kitchen.
“How do we handle things?” I whispered.
“What?” she asked.
“Nothing.”
Then came the apologies.
He had watched the video.
I could tell because the messages lost their commanding tone.
Please tell me you’re safe.
I’ve made a terrible mistake.
I didn’t remember the villa.
That last message left me cold.
He didn’t remember.
He had remembered the preferred wine of a client he saw twice a year. He knew the registration numbers of his aircraft. He could recall the exact valuation of a company he had considered buying in 2018.
But the dream his wife had kept on their refrigerator had disappeared from his mind.
I typed one question.
If Claire hadn’t asked to go there, would you ever have remembered?
The dots appeared.
Disappeared.
Returned.
Then nothing.
I put the phone down.
For a while, Lucy and I sat at her kitchen table listening to the boiler complain.
Finally, she pushed a plate toward me.
“You still have to eat.”
“I don’t feel hungry.”
“You can be devastated with toast.”
I laughed unexpectedly.
Then I cried so hard she came around the table and held me.
That afternoon, Priya received the first call from Marcus’s solicitors.
They wanted a meeting.
They wanted discretion.
They wanted reassurance that I would not speak to the press.
“What do you want?” Priya asked me.
The question felt unfamiliar.
“Time.”
“Then that’s what we ask for.”
By evening, flowers arrived at Lucy’s house.
White roses. My favorite, once.
There was no address on the card, only my name.
I looked at Lucy.
“Did you tell him?”
“No.”
The delivery had come through the family office. Someone had found me through the emergency contact information I had given them years earlier.
I wasn’t frightened of Marcus. I was furious at how quickly his concern had become an instruction for other people to locate me.
Priya sent a clear message: no visits, no deliveries, no attempts to obtain my whereabouts.
Marcus replied through his solicitor within the hour.
Understood.
I wondered how many boundaries I might have set if I had believed I was allowed to have them.
That night, I opened my portfolio on Lucy’s dining table.
She stood behind me, studying a drawing of a small library with a courtyard in the center.
“You made this?”
“A long time ago.”
“It’s beautiful.”
“It was never built.”
“That doesn’t make it less beautiful.”
I traced the edge of the paper.
The designer who had drawn those lines had believed her work might matter. She had argued about daylight and public seating. She had worn comfortable shoes and talked too quickly when she was excited.
I missed her with an intensity that surprised me.
My phone lit up again.
One final message from Marcus, sent before his solicitor’s boundary took effect.
I don’t know how to fix this.
For years, that sentence would have brought me running.
I would have explained my pain gently enough for him to tolerate it. I would have handed him the instructions, then praised him for trying.
May you like
This time, I turned the phone over.
And stayed beside my drawings.